Our PB&J Saga!
My daughter’s favorite food hands down is Peanut Butter and Jelly. What I have learned over the last 10 years is that whenever she goes on a hunger strike I can make her this sandwich and the strike is over. Now while the hunger strike for that day may be over, she always says the same thing:
“Granddaddy warms up my sandwiches when I wake up late at night and he has a cup of coffee while I have my sandwich”
The truth about our daughter.
What you have to understand about this interaction is that Cherrie has a way of crawling into your lap, your heart, your mind and pocket without you even realizing its happening. So often I find myself loosing out on sleep as I anticipate her waking up. I have trained my body to run off four hours of sleep on a regular basis. I rarely feel guilty for sleeping four hours if she wakes up. I’ll pack her a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. Sometimes I leave it in the fridge, other nights I leave it on her dresser in a ziplock bag with a colorful sticky note letting her know I love her. If I know she hasn’t eaten in a really long time I will pack a lunch box, just like if she were in school and i’ll leave it for her. I’ve actually even done a treasure hunt for her snack/dinner before leaving notes guiding her around the house. (She gets a kick out of that).
All of this to ensure she knows she is loved at all times. I think my husband thought I was crazy in the beginning, but now he understands. If at any time I fall asleep without preparing her something, he makes her a peanut butter and jelly sandwich with a glass of milk and tells her to let me sleep in.
My Little Secret
A lot of times I just lay in bed listening to them interact in the kitchen. She tiptoes back up the stairs and has her meal. She stays as quiet as she can and plays in her room or on my floor. If I was up doing a cake the night before she crawls into my bed and eventually falls asleep. Those days are my favorite. It’s the only day of the week I’m sure to get at least six of hours sleep.
My husband has fully accepted the reality of our lives and understands the sacrifice that must be paid in order to create some sense of normal life for Cherrie. While our life may seem unconventional to outsiders, our norm works for us.